She will be greatly missed

Last week a dear friend to me had passed away.  She said she wanted the pain to stop.  I had no idea that she had those thoughts in her head.  I wish i could have spent some more time with her i loved her alot!  I became friends with her when i was seeing her brother lol after we broke up i always said the only good thing i got out of that relationship was sammy!  The funeral for her was last weekend it was unreal to see her laying there not moving she was so life like i was waiting for her to wake up.  At the same time it just didn't seem like sammy cuzz of what she had on and her make up she never had make up no exsept for eye liner.  It freaked me out how life like they made her look.  I cried so much that day and the days before and after and still today when writing this!  She was a beautiful person and anyone who new her loved her!  I can only hope that she found whatever she was looking for............

The Music on here now.... is in the remembrance of sammy..... I love you sammy...........  

Evil Clouds!

So we had a pretty nice storm a few weekends ago and I'm just talking about it now (wow am i behind on things) any way.  We had this storm and it was just me and Sid.  Jeremy was at a friends house and i was at home freaking out!  Ok so i hate storms and i hate lighting and I was freaking out cuzz the county right next to us was under a tornado warring and we have now were to go if there is a tornado cuzz we live on the second floor and there is no place to go!  No basement, no designated place to go in case of a tornado, just hold your head between your legs and kiss your ass good bye!  Its a good thing we are friends with the down stairs people though cuzz I'm sure if there was one they would lets us in witch dose make me feel a bit better...... but not much!  Any ways there was this bad storm I'm freaking out and a huge thing oh lighting hits really close and scares the crap out of me and i scream! (A little of background info. on me i have been not even 2o feet away from a transformer OUT SIDE when a lighting bolt hit it and it blew up!  hence why light scares the crap out of me) Thank god for my sister she talk to me on the phone and helped me stay calm till it passed.  I love you Stefy!  Hear are some pics of the evil clouds!  I SWEAR THE FIST ONE LOOKS LIKE AN EVIL FACE LOL! EVIL CLOUDS!

Fun Times!

Ok so ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you i was the last one to ever want kids!  I even wrote a hole paper in, get this... chilled development on why i shouldn't have kids or want to rays them, But as soon as i saw my baby girl for the first time there was a love for her that i didn't even know existed, and now every day is better then the next! Sure sometimes Sid mess with stuff and i get upset, but then she comes over buy me and lays her head on my lap, and it melts my heart!  I just couldn't even think about life with out her!  I guess its just in my blood.  I mean my mom was, and still is the best mom ever, and i love her so much.  I can only hope that one day Sid will feel about me, as i feel about my mom, that would be the greatest thing to me!

Now here are some cute pics of Sid at the park a few weekends ago!  She had a fun time even though she doesn't look it on the swing! lol

Sid has lately had this thing for sticks she like to pick them up and carry them around and sooner or latter try to well eat them.

Drinking some water after all that play!